A while went on since last time I could put some words
on written thoughts. Time has turned faster somehow. Most of the hours I’m
supposed to work I’m actually working, maybe that’s why…
A couple of months ago I’ve got some minutes so I
could play writer. Well, the ones I’m taking for writing this come from a duty
I’m delaying because my boss had to leave and, for now, she’s not behind me
watching my screen. The problem, and it actually bothers me, it is this sort of
sense of responsibility I cannot just get over, so there’s a voice telling me
this should not be longer.
This might be a reason, a reason why some of us won´t
focus more on the things we like to; these things we usually dedicate lots of
thoughts. I had in my mind a couple of great things to tell, and I just forgot
them, completely, I’m just using this time, as started saying, to put some
words of written thoughts…
An important politician has escaped from the country,
he’s now in Spain and there are these low quality fake news on saying, more or
less, that he, from abroad, will claim the presidency of Venezuela as the leader
of the coalition we call Oposición.
So you can see even the fake news have lost quality, just like the government,
which never had but this is different; our media is pretty much replicating
arguments very few people believe and now so many just quit being interested.
The face of many look like when hearing a bad joke which end is already known;
by everyone, because it’s been told too much. I mean, people are not only bored
but also tired and offended and those feelings together weighs quite some. In
my case for example it’s on my shoulders, I’m always needing to have a seat,
like carrying a back pack …
I’m back two days later. This is a process but I’ve
found some to say: I still have a car. I say still because it is something
nowadays. I know I should sell it but I have this hang on sort of feeling that won’t let me, so I’m leaving my
bonuses on it. I know I sound selfish, too much I, me and my and this is not a pity searcher writing, it isn’t, this is
more like sharing story writing.
I took the subway yesterday because there were no
available buses, which it’s interesting in a city that it’s not entirely
covered by the underground transportation. Many people rely on buses; cabs
became too expensive, too expensive for someone who’s just going, for example,
to do a shift at an everyday job, so, given the circumstances, you could see a
lot of people standing, not for, but at; bank entrances, ATM machines, bakery
stores and now, bus stops too. This could be why we’re all pretty much used to not
being so strict with the timekeeping. We’ve finally become the jokes we once
told each other to make fun. Few years ago we said such a behavior belonged to
Venezuelan’s way, now it is the consequence of all these measures and responds…
El Metro, that´s how we call our subway, was crowded; always, now with many
more people to whom a deodorant and a perfume are simply unaffordable; you all get
the idea of this: the breathing, the heat, the smelling, the disappointment,
perhaps the sadness or maybe some anger but wrongly conveyed; you could notice
and also feel it: how the environment and people’s mood actually talk through
the expression of their faces, and that’s when the moment stopped…
The moment became memory; at least I would like to
with these words, this post. I saw hope, I saw a girl with hope on her face. I
didn’t talk to her, I didn’t stare at her either, just felt her that way, so I
told myself why not being hopeful too. In the end, the situation won’t get any
better with the anger and I’m pretty much tired. I’ll try to be more
interesting next time. Thanks!
