Bridge in construction, that’s
what I read from the banner every time I go to Animus. I sleep for some dreaming and just then start the path,
flying low until finally I get to a cave: an entrance says Thoughts, and due to its size, not so high to me at least, I’ve got
to stop flying.
I take
a walk: my steps don´t settle enough because the soil is soft, like sand or
mud, I can´t notice. I feel myself willing to keep up; there’s no rush, time in
dreaming is patient, so I just wonder with my hands and sense some texture,
grab a little of it and try to see, to take a closer look: it was gray but out
of my knowledge. I could imagine that’s how moon sand might look like but it is
because what I’m carrying in my bag (I forgot to say I carry a bag every time I
dream) I usually fill this backpack with names: I like to think I dream with
real people but really I ignore, or maybe I’m the ignored one, I haven´t
figured it out the scope of my desires. For now, let’s move on over this soft
and gray (neutral) soil. Yes, because it is free from any judgment.
I keep
walking; see some questions spread and several answers hanging: doubts of my
reality, of my certain future. Future is not uncertain, uncertain are facts
when they’re sudden and it depends, because sometimes Present leaves pieces as
a warning that a bit of a whole will be completed and that the time for awakens
is more sensed than in dreams’; therefore, impatience might come from outside,
unlike this patience, that comes within.
I
read When, Why, Because as well, but
the rest are just ellipsis.
I
open the bag and grab some pronouns; the first clue for the questions spread.
Doubt is like opportunity; both have issues with people just like the names I
bring onto my dreams. It’s not necessary to say them loud, the voice of the
dreams has its own language, anyone who sees someone sleeping knows it when
this asleep talks; it is some kind of no translatable dialect.
I
start wondering inside the cave: why she?
When you? Why we? The wind blows and pushes the answers, I assume a You towards me is an I, so the answers lies on me but I don´t
know what to say. I check the bag again but get sort of nervous; I’m afraid not
to pick the right name (yes, random and chance are strange while you dream on)
I finally prefer the doubt and wake up…
Nothing
special, just a day full whys and whens, for example: why so much traffic,
so many critics, so stupid fundaments? There’s not a single because for any of my whys but, well, let´s wait until tonight…
It
is said (better than known) Love reflects itself in many ways, for instance: a
metaphor related with time, about love I’m talking, might be how long the beloved
one takes to reach your eyes at knowing you’re waiting at the entrance to her
home. If it’s the same home for both, well, I’m not sure (I guess there’s more
than a why) Reasons varies and love
(as I just said it) reflects in many ways.
I was
a lucky; I could fly a little more before going back to the cave, before running
away from widow questions and orphan answers. I go on, open the bag; Animus is a bridge, a bridge inside a
cave: this big is this cave, these many are my doubts. I wake up…
I
forgot to say I’m a chauffeur with a car of his own: take me there, pick me up,
and yes, just when I was about to pick her up, Boom! I crashed the car. Another
day with whys…
Moon
sand got wet but hands were no longer my path, I’m barefoot, one doesn´t know
how’s looking while dreaming. I sense a shore, a silvered sea with some few waves.
I stepped on from answers to windows, windows without transparency, like frames,
like a gallery, a gallery which frames look like stars and as stars enlighten.
I see some like my face, yes, through these windows. I didn’t just see my face
through it, for example: I saw myself stroking the legs of an important name I
always carry in my bag; it is the name of my present, a present which will be
future, for now. Through other window I saw me as a child; as an animal through
another, an unknown animal. There’s a windows, old, blurred; the texture of the
weather is strange but I figured it out by a pair words written with a finger
on it, just like someone else would have been here before, someone who got
bored, tired. The words were: Silence
and Oblivion. This, along with the questions,
looks like an afterthought. Since there’s some antagonisms in the bag, I may do
some conjectures: why don´t I forget?
(For oblivion) Or when this silence? Because I remember you, and from the noise I… I wake up…
There
is a certain feeding for waking up on a bad mood when sleeping with doubts;
some people dream with things they can’t have, some others with things they can’t
understand. That explains the reflects in the morning, those moments in front
of the mirror trying to accept ourselves, to accept that there’s just a shaving
machine, a makeup set. The day promises to be the same, but today I don´t work,
I’m without the car, so I’m just taking a walk…
Curiously
doubts fade away with the steps, and unlike dreams, there’s sort of a comprehension
while keeping up on the sidewalks. Perhaps it’s just oblivion and silence, and next
dream remember…
It
was a beach at night, a beach inside a cave with moon sand and a bridge, and
the windows, the words, the memories, everything making noise while I go on,
and I’m again in the same dream. Probably pronouns are no longer needed because
the only one here is me, it means I am: I’m who walks and doubts due to sensations
and uncertainties of everyday and there’s no more sand, nor sea for my steps.
There’s just a banner at the end of this path: Bridge in construction.
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